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Saturday, July 12, 2008

I had a long, hard, terrible, awful and unbearable week..
Made a huge error at work..
Mistake was discovered on Mon..
Since then, been "shoot" almost everyday..
Every words hurt so much that i wished i could just die on the spot or disappear into thin air..

Even though i wish to just quit on the spot because of XXX, but since, i was the one who made the error, i had the responsible to do everything i could to resolve it..
I cant just walk away like that..

I did everything i was told to do to help resolve the issue..
However, this doesnt stop "XXX " from shooting me..
Of course, she had every right to scold or question me since it was my fault..
But i just feel that she didnt put herself in my shoes and think in my position..
How was i to know that wat was the standard procedure and wat wasnt?
It wasnt fair that the girl i am replacing left not even a week after i join..

I'm not trying to put all blame on XXX..
I understand that she must be in really great pressure..
She must be worried too..
And i am also very sorry for wat i had done..
I did tried my best to resolve..
But it seems that everything i did from then on was wrong..
I'm not asking for anything..
All i hope for was that she can just think in my position for a little while..
Her every words had successfully took away watever (little) confidence i had for myself..
I will remember what she had said and this matter for the rest of my life..
And i think i will need a long long time to pick myself up and to recover.. =(

On the side note, i'm thankful that my old classmates called me last min for a short meetup..
They are so lame and funny..
Somehow, anyhow, they did cheer me up a little, though they dun know..
Thanks to the FOUNDER of FAC!
And of course, thanks to my BFF (you-know-who-you-are) for hearing me out..

8:36:00 PM