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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Work is not very good.. I had been dragging myself to work everyday (for the past 3 days)..
Of course, the colleagues there were nice, patient and helpful.. They will talk to me, ask me to feel at home and etc.. And i'm also trying to find more things to talk to them.. Haha.. But i'm not someone who can open up so fast.. And i dun know how to communicate with half-strangers-half-friends.. But i will try, will try harder, i promise..
The difficult part is the systems that they are using.. They are simply too confusing.. There are like hundreds and thousands of questions i want to ask, but my mentor seems busy, so i didnt want to disturb her.. The way she teach me is in a way, i feel not very organise (to me lah).. It's my problem i think, cos i'm a rather systematic person.. So, i hope people can teach me in a way where she can tell me the overall view, the general procedure and then go into each of them in details.. But the way she teach me is quite 'choppy', sometimes this thing then all of a sudden she skipped to other things.. It's making me really confusing.. But, she's really nice and patient (grateful and thankful).. =)
Of course i know that this job isnt going to be easy, if not they could just get a dip holder to do it.. But the point is, i hate this 'being unable to control things' feeling.. I know i should have more patient, but i hate myself for being so slow and stupid lah.. Aiya, very confusing.. But since i cant quit now, i will try to learn all the stuffs asap, like the job as much as i can and think as positive as i can.. =)
Ok, enough rantings and whining.. Shall stop here for now.. =(

*EDITED*
Was talking to one of friend on msn just now.. And wat he said kind of left me thinking and thinking.. We were talking about our new job then he said that i shouldnt have start work so fast.. Cos my last paper was like 8th May, which mean, i started work less that a month after my last paper.. He said that i didnt enjoy my last few moments as a student.. He said i am quite dumb to go into the 'adult world' so fast.. He said he didnt understand wat's the rush to start work so fast.. I told him my reasons and he said i should live my life for myself and not for others.. He said i cannot be so influence by people around me, cos ultimately it is me who is leading my own life, not those people.. Part of me agreed and now i feel a little messy and lost.. Hmmm, till now, i still feel very overwhelmed.. Like, i had made a mistake and taken the wrong steps..

1:02:00 PM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Work is ok..
Colleagues are nice so far..
But i am extremely tire..
Didnt really sleep well last nite..
Nearly doze off during work just now..
Guess i did shut my eyes for like maybe 30 seconds (continuously)..
I dun know why, but my eye lids just feel really really heavy..
I will try to adapt to this 'sleeping early and wake up early' thing soon..
Also, i hope i can learn fast, so that i dun have to sit there doing nothing much..
Alright, i'm gg offline and going to nua on my bed already..
Ciao!

8:58:00 PM

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I'm starting work tomolo..
How fast it is, right?
Tell me about it..
Major sian-ness.. =(
Only thing to be happy, it is located at Orchard..
Hahahaha..

11:31:00 AM

Monday, May 26, 2008

The flyer ride is really an amazing one.. Hmm, of course i do feel a little scare when i'm at the highest point, but the whole cabin feels steady and stable which really helps.. However, i do think 29 bucks is really a little over-price.. The view was nice but not really fantastic.. I guess, it will probably be better when the IR is up.. And i really think my daddy is mad to buy this photo thingy from the flyer.. Mad lah, $15 for one.. And it's just purely photoshopped or something.. Alamak.. Daddy's money is really easy to earn.. Haha.. =)

P.S. Some lightings remind me of one the mms someone send me when he's in Sydney.. Hopefully that person is doing well.. =)

10:06:00 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I'm going on to and up to the flyer later, thus i'm happy..
My hair is growing to a length that makes me feel secure, thus i'm happy..
There's an interview tomolo and is probably something that i want to do, thus i'm happy..
GSS has started, thus i'm happy..

There's too much things in life where u will worry and then feel stress, thus, find some reasons that makes you happy.. This is TWS's philosophy! =)

12:39:00 PM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Sometimes i really think i inherited my dad's 'slowness' and 'blurness'..
He just told my sis to check out the movie (his idol's movie), Forbidden City (or something, the Jackie Chan and Jet Li one)..
But, Daddy, i think that movie was like first screen about maybe a month ago..
Isn't it a bit too late to check it out now?
And when i said that it's not showing anymore, he insisted that it is still showing..
He even asked me to check out golden village, maybe they still screen it..
Haha..
Cute or not?
Funny or not?
Slow or not?
I really (occasionally) see me in him (or him in me)..
But, occasionally lah, really!

6:52:00 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

I went out in the morning feeling confident and happy but came home with a pair of bleeding legs, feeling tire, upset, and angry..

Interview wasnt good.. Maybe i wasnt well prepared enough, dun know..
But then i really hate the person interviewing me lah.. Seriously nonsense! I feel kind of insulted by him.. I know i'm a nobody, and i'm not the smartest kid around, but i thought i shld deserve some kind of respect too.. First, he said he couldnt understand my eng.. Even though i dun speak with those kind of ang moh slang, but all along i had no problem communicating to everyone else with the way i speak eng .. Preharps he's not local (he's not ang moh by the way, preharps some Brunei, Philippines or something), that's why he couldnt understand.. But pls loh, i'm a Singaporean not someone from ur country, of course i have to say eng in a way Singaporeans understand.. I think ur eng was much worse, seriously (sorry).. And then he was like slouching all the way and he even answer his hp during the interview (was something personal i think).. Madness lah, wat kind of team leader/manager is he.. I dun know lah.. Maybe i'm too fussy or wat lah.. But seriously loh, i think if i cant stand him (with my quite-good temper), i'm sure others would not too.. Bleah!
Anyway, my stupid pair of heels is killing me lah.. I really dun know how i walk home with all the pain.. And when i reach home, i realise my skins are like tearing and it's bleeding.. Super horrible.. I pity my legs (ankles to be exact)..
Overall, it's just a really bad day for me lah.. Arrrgh!

1:04:00 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008

Lovely people, lovely friends, lovely company, and BFF!

3:26:00 PM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

I pray for all the victims, their families and all the survivors.. It's not easy and it's not something that we as Sinaporeans can understand the pain, sadness and sufferings these people in China are going through currently..

Natural disaster is something really horrible.. It's something that even the smartest humans cannot do anything to help.. We could only see the things happened but cant provide any solution to it.. I guess when such things happen, all the more people in different parts of the world should come together as one, help out in whatever ways we can.. Those with money, donate.. Those with clothes, donate.. Those with no money, pray.. I believe the gods up there will be able to hear.. =)

"别轻易放弃明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气就更有力量 " - 王雅君

2:09:00 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008

Hello people, i'm back! Haha.. Slept well, ate well and played well.. Thought i will return home with a tan and maybe put on a few kilos (how not to with the nice bbq stuffs and fondue), but luckily i didnt.. Haha.. In fact, i felt a little disappointed with the weather.. Keep raining isnt something good i think.. I know i'm contradicting myself, but isnt all girls like that? Haha.. The people (i mean the company) were great.. Breakfast and bbq stuffs were mostly done by the guys, we can even request wat we want to eat.. Planning of itineraries were also done by them.. The job of communicating with the reception, bookings of any activities and talking to the driver uncle were also passed to them.. Hehe.. Sometimes, they made me feel very useless, but then sometimes, i feel that i'm lucky that they are so capable (can do lesser things, hehe).. Contradicting again, haha..
I got not much photos cos i only took my cam out on the very last day where the guys brought me and Fad to watch sunrise.. And, sad to say, that was the only time we went to the beach.. Kind of wasted right.. Where got people go Bintan nv go beach one (pardon my sentence structure, super singlish).. Haha..

Overall, other than the weather, i really enjoyed myelf.. And i'm really grateful to each and everyone for taking great care of me.. I gonna miss everyone, that's for sure.. But i hope everyone will continue to keep in touch and may the best to everyone! Meet up often, alright (especially my 2 lovely babes!)..
Alright, i guess it's really the end of holidays.. It's now time to work hard and find a job soon.. Sent like maybe 5 more resumes already.. I am really actively searching for one, hopefully, the two old ones at home dun give me any pressure (cross my fingers).. My next interview is this coming Tues @ Citibank, and i'm feeling kind of scare now.. Overwhelmed by the job scope i guess, not sure if i can handle the responsibilities.. But, i definitely need to do lots of homework.. Got to dig out my stats notes and finance notes, and preharps need to research a little on the organisation itself.. That's about it for now.. Ciao..

(P.S. Take care, Miss HY aka Dan.. You know we are around if you need us..)

3:41:00 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

END OF EXAM, END OF SCHOOL!
START OF UNEMPLOYMENT, START OF JOB SEARCHING!
Haha..
Alright, for now, let me go enjoy and rest before i come back and start blogging nonsense..

Anyway, pls date me out, people (especially, my chubsis, my poly girls and guys and my sistas)..
Weekdays, weekends, both are ok..
But let me know the dates, especially this week (a little pack and many unclear plans)..
Sorry and thanks!

It's korean drama time now! Woohoo! Ciao! =)

11:59:00 PM

Monday, May 05, 2008

Taking a short little break from my books, haha..
So many things in my mind now..

Job, Bintan, Thailand, results, last paper, graduation..

Haha..

Anyway, the job thing, i doubt i will get employ lah..
But i will still wait for their call..

I think should be this few days..

If i get employ, guess it will be good for me..

A good environment and a good superior where i can learn new things..

If i didnt get the job, i guess i will continue to send resumes loh..

But, of course, i hope to get employ asap..

Haha, just the thought of the things i can buy, haha, makes me happy..

I want to buy this, this, and this, haha (top 3 things, there's a lot more actually)..

But before i can owe all these, i'm looking forward to the shopping trip this coming fri..
And i'm going to 'da kai sha jie' lah, haha..
Alright, back to books..

P.S. People, pls 'date' me out after the 8th of May, ok.. See ya all SOON! =)

8:46:00 PM

Friday, May 02, 2008

My friend sent this to me to ermm kind of relieve my stress (which really didnt lah!)..
Thought it would be pretty fun to share with my friends, though i know not all will read my blog..
Muhaha.. =)
But those who pass by here, go ahead and try it..
U will be surprise by the result (i'm sure!) =)
CLICK here.. ♥

10:26:00 PM

The weather has been so hot and unreasonably sunny.. And i really hate it..

I hate it when my table is right infront of the window (though i didnt open it, the sunlight can still pierce through mah, need more PA+++) and i hate it when i got to sit at my table for 8 to 10 hours with at least 5 hrs of sunlight shining on my hands.. Arrrg.. Stupid sun and stupid skin that is so sensitive to the sun rays.. And, seriously, i dun know wat will happen in Bintan.. I'm quite sure i will come back looking like one big charcoal.. Arrrgh.. I want more Vitamin C, more whitening cream, and preharps a few jabs of the whitening injection (if it's available in spore).. I need a big big cap, i need a big UV umbrella and i need a black thick sweater.. Hmmm, excuses, oh, i mean reasons to go shopping? Hehe.. =)

Alright, back to books and notes..

2:00:00 PM