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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Moi blurness has gone up by several levels..
Hmm, i think a lot of ppl know how blur i am, but u all cant imagine how blur i am today..
Yesterday, Faddy called me, and we agreed to meet 1.15 pm at our usual bus-stop..
But guess wat, i planned my timetable yesterday nite, and i wrote i will go out of house at 1.20 pm..
Very funny huh, Missy Tan..
Just wat is wrong with u?
I dun even know that i'm going to be late, until Faddy said she's at the bus-stop..
Alamak, can someone just slap my head..
Then i panicked like crazy lah..
Grab my bag and keys and then rush out of house like one mad girl..
Luckily there's cabs around and the uncle was kind enough to drive faster..
He even ensure me that i will be early and ask me to relax a bit..
Haha..
I am so heng lah..
Must be because i prayed in the morning..
Haha..
Aiyo, i must really take note of my blurness and make sure it dun get worse..

But hor, the strange thing is that, someday last week or the week before, i dreamt about similar situation as today..
I was late too because i miscalculate the time, then i also panicked in my dreams and i even called papa to ask him to fetch me..
I still remember when i woke up, i was like in sweat (probably cold sweat)..
I think i sound very dramatic but the thought of the dream and wat happened today kind of scare me a little..
But i am just so so so glad that i wasnt late for my exam lah, althought i paid a rather 'hefty' sum for it..
Haiz..
Blur blur me..
Alright, the very tire, blur Missy Tan needs to go prepare for her interview tomolo already..
Good nite..

The blur Missy Tan sign off,

12:19:00 AM

Monday, April 28, 2008

Hey, people, i having my MC exam tomolo (which i'm left with 1.5 chap more to memorise and my head feels like it's going to explode anytime), so pls wish me luck..
And, i'm going for an interview (which i am totally not prepare yet) this coming wed, so pls wish me luck too..
I seriously need lots and lots of luck (hmm, though i think i have got the 'shi li' also lah), haha..
Ok, i need to get back to my books (NOW!)..
Good luck to all my mates who is having MC exams tomolo..
Ciao! =)

4:23:00 PM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

I'm terribly upset now..
Spent so many days studying..
But in the end, i (think and feel i) didnt do well..
And somemore it's marketing, something which i am so confident of..
Probably, because i only had three hours of sleep, my head was super heavy and i couldnt really concentrate..
The MCQs are like to so tricky and so much of playing around with words..
Even though there isnt any right or wrong ans for the case study, i felt that my points werent strong enough..
A lot of other things i could have write but i didnt..
Probably also because i studied too much of other stuffs which was redundant..
I wasnt very organise when i'm writing, jumping and hoping here and there..
Arrrgh..
There goes my distinction degree..
Not that i am greedy, but top 10% is not sufficient..
Not sufficient for me to get a nice, decent job..
Like Mr Tan said, people look at ur results for fresh grad..
Arrgh..
I want my distinction degree!
=(

2:13:00 PM

Monday, April 21, 2008

I'm going to sit for my first paper in like less than a week time..

So, i'm really really tense up now..

And i think (i feel), i'm having a little mood swing on and off, which is bad..

And the chubsis who is having her term break isnt helping me.. =(

For the next 2 weeks, i'm going to spend like 70% of my time with my textbook and notes..

I really hate them, but for the sake of HDs and Ds, i will try (try only) to love my books, at least for the next 2 weeks..

Memorising starts tomolo..

Friends, families and others, pls help me by not asking me out to play, eat or shop..

I need time to study and sleep (which i'm really depriving)

I look exactly like a panda now (i mean the eyes, not size of course)..

Alright, breaktime is up..

Ciao..

P.S. Those who are mugging hard like me, good luck and jiayou! We will look forward to our yummy ice-cream at Sunset Way and Bintan trip ok.. =)

9:13:00 PM

Friday, April 18, 2008

Moi have been really really busy.. To the extent that i feel i dun even have time for myself.. And this is quite depressing.. But luckily i still got like 6 hrs of sleep everyday..Have been heading to Esplande for this whole week to mug and i think Esplande library is a good place to mug.. And of course, Missy Fad and Mr Tan are two very good study partners..
Just now, while looking at my planner, i realise that my first paper starts in 8 days time.. And i think i am like half prepared.. For my first paper, all i need to do is to start memorising.. And, like i always say, i really really hate memorising.. It's such a torture..
On a lighter note, Bintan trip is confirmed (thanks Bryan for the bookings and stuffs).. I guess the trip is our group's motivation to survive through exams.. Though i think Bintan isnt my place but i feel this whole trip will be a fun and enjoyable one.. =)
Ok.. Break time is up.. Back to books (NOW).. (*_*)

12:30:00 AM

Friday, April 11, 2008

It's sad when your own parents dun understand your personality..
It's sad when your own parents dun trust you..
It's sad when they think of you as someone who is insensible..
It's sad when you try so hard to attain good results and they didnt acknowledge your hard work..
It's also sad when you can't even explain the situation you are in..

What i should be worrying now is how to get good results for my 3 last papers and not whether i find a job or no, right?.. I dun mean finding a job is not important, it is very important, but the priority should be clearing the last 3 papers, isn't it? I dun understand wat does it mean by, "Huh? June still haven start working ah?" Hello, excuse me? My paper end on the 8th of May.. Not April.. U all expect me to start the very next day or week? And this time round, finding a job isnt as simple as like when i got my Diploma.. Nvm if you all dun understand.. But please do not add on pressure to me.. I dun like it..

And for your info, i had already started to think about "FINDING JOB & SENDING RESUMES" like 1 month back.. And, i also sent out 3 resumes already.. I dun know which part of me you all still unsatisfied with.. All i can say is, you all dun understand me at all and you all didnt give me any trust (which i think is really upsetting me)..

I'm feel really disappointed and i'm lost.. It's like, because you used to be a naughty girl, you will forever be seen as a bad girl.. Even if i get all As, even if i work really really hard, nothing will change at all..

I dun know how to continue from here anymore.. =**(

2:10:00 AM

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Today marks the last lecture in SIM as well as my last lesson for the degree course..

Lots of photo taking session, not only the few of us, but rather the whole class were busy taking photos after lesson.

I feel really glad that it was Patricia (my fave lecturer) who ended the last class for all of us..

She's like the best lecturer throughout these 3 years..

I keep thinking, if only she taught us marketing for the 1st yr, then preharps i wont choose finance as my major subject (quite regretted with my choice actually)..

Before i end this, i must say, I REALLY LOVE THESE PEOPLE and i think i am so going to miss all of them.. =(

More photos later..

I is very tire now..

Nite!

2:10:00 AM

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I'm so glad that all projects are finally OVER!

No more late nights in school, and no more camping at MAC!

The last project was really horrible..

Glad that there's still the rest cos i was really tire and my mind wasn't working at all..

That's really bad..

And up till today, i'm still not able to recover from the lack of sleep..

I knock into other people's shoulder today and i nearly fall asleep in class..

That's really bad..

I'm going to bed now..

Tml, or rather, later is the last lesson already..

Gonna take photos and have fun before revisions start..

Nite! (oh, zu, clara and poly mates, when u all want to meet up? tag me or sms me, can? how about this sat? 12 april? - really really sorry for the delay..)

1:02:00 AM

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

I know i always complaint and whined about how much i hate the pressure and stress that i got in school..
But when i realise today is my last scond lesson (and tml is the very last one), i suddenly feel that i'm so going to miss school BIG time..
I'm going to miss the long hours we spent in the discussion rooms..
I'm going to miss how our table are filled with at least 5 lappies..
I'm going to miss how we debate during project meetings.

I'm going to miss the lecture hall..

I'm going to miss sitting in as a student..

I'm going to miss the ocassional chit chatting during lectures..

I'm going to miss the printing lab..
I'm going to miss the cold cold library..
I'm going to miss the 'project' bench..
I'm going to miss the bubble tea in that smelly canteen..
I'm going to miss the free tea during every break..
I'm going to miss the very nice ice cream place at Sunset Way..
I'm going to miss the special yogurt..
And i am definately going to miss all my good classmates..
I'm going to miss the guys making fun of me (maybe not)..

I'm going to miss the guys' nice nice personality (at times very naughty)

I'm going to miss the guys buying food for us, knowing we dun want to go inside the smelly canteen..
I'm going to miss MS's birthday song (that is always haunting me when she's tire)..
I'm going to miss hearing MS speak in chinese..
I'm going to miss Fad's blurness (countless)..
I'm going to miss Fad's shoulder and hair (from long to super short to bob to the current one)..

I'm going to miss the gossiping sessions with them..

I'm going to miss everything..
Awww..

5:50:00 PM

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

因为小孩儿的世界很简单, 所以他们很容易快乐..

As for me, as long as i get to eat low fat waffle and ice cream once a month, i will be happy..

That's how simple i am..

So, i am happy today..

And i forgot about how some people make me upset..

Haha..

11:23:00 PM